I feel soooo guilty although I know I shouldn't! I've been planning these purchases for awhile now but when it finally came down to pressing that "Submit" button I felt a wave of stress take over me. Perhaps I feel like this will be opening the floodgates but I know I have it under control! I've been needing cross trainers since I have been wearing my running shoes to zumba, cardio mix, turbo kick, 24SET, etc. As a result my ankles and knees would start hurting during class and after working out from all the twisting, jumping, pivoting, and lunging.
As if that wasn't bad enough, I spent $65.95 on ONE pair of workout pants from FitCouture! I cringed when I bought it online but I have been looking for good quality workout pants for awhile. I am not willing to spent $98 on Lululemon pants and did not want to spend $20 on Forever 21 workout pants. I went to GAP on Wednesday with a 40% off coupon to try on the gFast pants since I have the gFast leggings but the flare was way too wide. Anyway you are all probably sick of hearing me talk about fitness clothes, I can't believe I have spent so much time thinking about them!
What's even crazier for me is the anxiety I felt when buying these items. I have never had that happen before but ever since I have been tracking every penny and saving as much as I could, spending does not give me that little "high" anymore like it used to. Instead I was going back and forth and ultimately came to a conclusion that I needed these items and even calculated the costs in terms of hours I have spent at work (which wasn't so bad - I'm exaggerating like I'm buying a car here!). I can afford them and I planned/budgeted for these items, but now I have realized that...
Shopping is no longer a hobby for me.
Coming to this realization is a bit sad because I have fond memories of shopping to bring me a short burst of happiness when I needed it, but it also makes me feel like a winner (a winner of what, I don't know haha, isn't a winner always a good thing?). It's like ending a friendship with a really good friend who has been there for me. I no longer purchase items out of impulse or because I want more "stuff". Doing a back to back purchase like this online really reminds me of how out of control I was and that's probably what the anxiety was all about.
So goodbye shopping, my old hobby and good friend... we had great times but now it's time to move on!
I wanna know.. any other recovering shopaholics out there?