2.11.2011

Shopping Anxiety

I feel soooo guilty although I know I shouldn't! I've been planning these purchases for awhile now but when it finally came down to pressing that "Submit" button I felt a wave of stress take over me. Perhaps I feel like this will be opening the floodgates but I know I have it under control! I've been needing cross trainers since I have been wearing my running shoes to zumba, cardio mix, turbo kick, 24SET, etc. As a result my ankles and knees would start hurting during class and after working out from all the twisting, jumping, pivoting, and lunging.

So this is what I spent $57 on yesterday. The ASICS Gel Enthrall cross trainer. I bought it off Amazon but I used my $29 Amazon remaining balance from a few gift cards, so in reality it was about $86 retail. I have ASICS Kayanos as running shoes, and I have had the ASICS Nimbus and Cumulus running shoes in the past. They are my favorite brand for running so I figured I should try out their cross trainers.

As if that wasn't bad enough, I spent $65.95 on ONE pair of workout pants from FitCouture! I cringed when I bought it online but I have been looking for good quality workout pants for awhile. I am not willing to spent $98 on Lululemon pants and did not want to spend $20 on Forever 21 workout pants. I went to GAP on Wednesday with a 40% off coupon to try on the gFast pants since I have the gFast leggings but the flare was way too wide. Anyway you are all probably sick of hearing me talk about fitness clothes, I can't believe I have spent so much time thinking about them!

What's even crazier for me is the anxiety I felt when buying these items. I have never had that happen before but ever since I have been tracking every penny and saving as much as I could, spending does not give me that little "high" anymore like it used to. Instead I was going back and forth and ultimately came to a conclusion that I needed these items and even calculated the costs in terms of hours I have spent at work (which wasn't so bad - I'm exaggerating like I'm buying a car here!). I can afford them and I planned/budgeted for these items, but now I have realized that...

Shopping is no longer a hobby for me.

Coming to this realization is a bit sad because I have fond memories of shopping to bring me a short burst of happiness when I needed it, but it also makes me feel like a winner (a winner of what, I don't know haha, isn't a winner always a good thing?). It's like ending a friendship with a really good friend who has been there for me. I no longer purchase items out of impulse or because I want more "stuff". Doing a back to back purchase like this online really reminds me of how out of control I was and that's probably what the anxiety was all about.

So goodbye shopping, my old hobby and good friend... we had great times but now it's time to move on!

I wanna know.. any other recovering shopaholics out there?

7 comments:

Blonde Ambitions said...Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

Your post really resonated with me! Maybe because I'm having a similar dilemma (noted here http://theblondeambitions.blogspot.com/2011/02/shopping-challenge-need-input.html ) around almost the exact same items, but I guess it's a very good sign that you're really evaluating each purchase & making sure that it's something you need.
The level of anxiety will probably fade over time.

Love your blog!

me in millions said...Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

I hear ya! I was totally there when I first started my blog (http://meinmillions.blogspot.com/2009/08/anxiety.html). I think it takes some time to figure out where the balance is between shopping and spending for you. I've definitely loosened up some since then, but I don't feel like it's out of control.

Daisy said...Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

I used to love to shop. I used to love to get home, try on everythng again, wear it out for the first time. But then it started being this thing where I hated trying on clothes, and I wouldn't even get excited about a new purchase. That's when I know I needed to stop.
I agree. It's not fun anymore!

shoppingtosaving said...Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

Thanks for all your comments!! I am glad I am not the only one... it's not fun anymore and it's kinda sad! I'm just scared that buying back to back purchases seem as though I am bouncing back into that little game of shopping.

mybuckstopshere.com said...Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

It makes me sad that shopping is no longer fun for me anymore. I used to look forward to impulse retail therapy to help pick up my mood when I was down. Now, I swear, I could be down and depressed and I still wouldn't shop (maybe just on chocolates).
When I see how much I've accomplished by not spending as much, it helps me to keep motivated and keep the spending to a minimum.

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