3.03.2012

The Letter


Warning: Long post ahead and brace yourself for emotional words haha.

So I got a letter from my #1 law school yesterday and it was a small envelope. I was crushed to say the least. Acceptances come in big envelopes while rejection letters come in small ones. I was convinced I was accepted since a lot of people have been accepted around the same time with similar numbers (actually LOWER numbers) than me. I wouldn't be so disappointed if I hadn't put 500% into my application, every single essay, the LSAT, everything for this school. I was in their range and I had strong letters of recommendation; it just didn't make sense. I should have at least been waitlisted since people with my exact numbers were waitlisted or accepted last cycle and the cycle before that. Also I work and live in SD, I thought that would give me an advantage if anything since they knew I would for sure be going there if accepted. What sucks is that I can't even write a letter of continued interest because I wasn't even waitlisted. How sad is that? But you know what, they can only accept 20-40 people in their part-time program out of thousands, and maybe those people deserved it or had just a tiny bit more of an edge than me.


It surprised me how strong and clear-minded I've been since that letter last night. I didn't cry as much as I thought and I didn't get mad as much as I should have, but I decided that I'm going to take this failure and move on. I'm going to apply myself harder and come back stronger, and study once again for the June LSAT. I truly believe things happen for a reason and that if I didn't get in, it wasn't meant to be at this moment in time. Maybe I am supposed to have another year to work and save as much money as I can, maybe I am supposed to quit my job if I get accepted somewhere else. In life you can't always get what you want right away but once you do achieve what you want, you will be more proud and feel like you deserved and earned it.


Right now my plan is to retake the LSAT in June and get a high score so that USD can NOT reject me next cycle. I'm going to apply early this time, in SEPTEMBER when apps come out, and apply early decision since admissions are on a rolling basis. If you want something, you must make it happen and I think this is truly what I need to do and this is what I want. If I don't try I won't ever know what would happen.

There is some good news, this was my first rejection. I am still waiting on 3 other schools, but I was banking on this one and this was my #1 choice so I could still keep my full-time job. I applied to the FT programs at the other schools so I would have to quit (and move). I really didn't think it through yet since I thought I would be accepted to USD. I'm hoping for scholarship money and if so, that would make it worthwhile to move and pay rent. Either way, I have to be prepared that I will be rejected from those 3 schools and study my butt off for the June test.

Out of all of this, I feel truly blessed to have family and friends to talk this out with. My dad cried when I told him yesterday and he told me without failing in life, you will never be able to pick yourself back up, and that's exactly the type of thinking I'm going to be doing while studying again.

Good-bye life! I'll see you again in 3 months. Let's do this.

13 comments:

bonnie said...Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

Hey... chin up! I believe you also stood less of a chance because you applied to their part time program. Law schools want full time candidates, so it is very likely that you may get an acceptance from the other 3 schools to which you applied. At that time, you will have to decide whether you want to quit your job. May not be a bad idea if the new school is still within driving distance from your support network, because you can always take on a part time job in the new city.


I knew how you feel because I got rejected at my #1 law school too, which was in the city where I wanted to be. I was accepted to a school about a 3.5 hour drive away, and I went. Then after I graduated, I found an articling job in the City (it's a prerequisite here to "article" prior to being called to the bar). My rejection experience did not end there, I was not hired back because they had enough lawyers and at that point I was very upset. But, couple months down the road, I found a position at an even better place and in every way, I am so glad I wasn't hired back because then I would not be where I am now.

Moral of this rambling post is that, as you said, things happen and there is often a reason for them, and the reason will become clear in retrospect.

Let us know about the other 3... fingers crossed for you.

B.

shopping2saving said...Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

Wow bonnie, thank you for sharing your story with me. I truly believe things happen for a reason, you're so right. Something just wasn't meant to be at this moment in time. I'm so glad you can relate, and I am sure lots of people go through this every year, we just have to pick ourselves back up again and try again, keep going, do whatever it takes to get where we want to be. C'est la vie! Thank you for your very sweet and sincere comment. I truly appreciate it.

Michelle P said...Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

I'm so sorry! Keep your head up though and don't beat yourself up too much over it.

fabulouslyfrugirl said...Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

I'm sorry that your #1 didn't work out for you. Keep us posted of your next 3 applications! I'm sure that something will work out for you. Chin up, k? :)

Debt-Free said...Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

I really had my heart set on going to a different law school. It never really occurred to me that I wouldn't go there, and it fit in perfectly with my plan. Long story short, I didn't get in and decided to go elsewhere, and now I'm actually glad for the rejection because I never would have chosen the crazy experience I'm in the middle of right now, and I would have missed out on so much!

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I'm sorry about the news... you seem to have a very good attitude about it, and I believe you can succeed no matter where you end up. Best of luck on the LSAT. They don't average the scores anymore, right? My friend bumped her LSAT from 165 to 168, and those 3 points made all the difference in her getting accepted to her #1 school.

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I'm so sorry. I'm hoping that you get into one of the other schools you applied for. It is good that you have a game plan going forward. You will get into law school and be an attorney.

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Oh I'm sorry to hear this.... but you've got a GREAT attitude!! I'm a strong believer that things happen for a reason... you will come out of this ahead :-)

The Happy Homeowner said...Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

I'm sorry to hear this! But I do feel like it's going to work out just when you expect it won't. Keep your head up and keep moving forward--I look forward to reading about your acceptance in the near future! :)

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Seems like your dad, the comments and you yourself already know what has to be done. You haven't left anything for me to add.

Be confident in yourself, you are already a success. The future can only shine brighter. I know you will achieve whatever you put your heart to.

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