Confession: I Wasted $4,495 Because I Was Lazy

Happy Easter everyone!

The reason I blog is because I like to keep myself accountable but I also like to share my stories. I'm not a special snowflake by any means, and I have made a lot of mistakes in the past financially and academically and I still make mistakes now. I think it's truly important to learn from our mistakes, and to pick ourselves back up again even after failing. Remember my motto for 2012? Never give up.

I have previously talked about my history with the LSAT.

I am almost ashamed of how much my parents and I have spent on this test. If you have taken it, you know how difficult this thing is, especially if you don't naturally think in a logical way. It's hard to explain... if you want to try an LSAT question, google it.

I have the worst attention span when it comes to reading boring stuff. Give me a fun book to read and I'll read it in a few hours. I love fiction of all sorts and I used to get in trouble for reading too much as a kid. When I achieved anything as a kid and when it was my birthday, I would ask for books or a trip to Border's. I can't understand why the LSAT gives me such a headache and gives me A.D.D. but 6 months ago, I recently became empowered to take on this test and took it in December 2011. Because I got rejected from USD and I want to increase my chances for scholarship money (anything would help), I'm retaking it this June.

The purpose of this post is to set an example and show you that I have wasted a lot of money because I was lazy, and didn't feel ready, and was just listening to my parents and not myself. If I had been a mature adult about it, I would have had the courage to tell them that I didn't want to go straight to law school and that I was still trying to figure out what was going on in my life and where I wanted to be in the future. I was 21, fresh out of college and had no idea what life had in store for me. I was afraid and nervous and stuck between wanting to work and wanting to go back to school. I only began seriously studying for this test last July after I decided I was ready. I finally found my motivation and knew that I wanted to do what I wanted and what was best for me. The first step in growing up was how to stop listening to my parents.

Here's how much I've spent on LSAT courses (this doesn't even include all of the books I've accumulated after sporadically purchasing them through Amazon):

December 2008 
Signed up for a weekend Powerscore course $395
I was still in college at the time and I had no idea what the test was about. I figured I could take it like how I took the SAT - without prior knowledge or practice. Boy was I wrong and in for a surprise.

June 2009 
Signed up for a full-length Testmasters course $1450
I had just graduated college and moved back home with my parents. Do you know how difficult it was to get back into that mode? My mom was having me take my little bro and sis to school every morning and I had to drive them to all of their extracurricular activities on top of cooking for the family, doing all of their laundry, and going to the gym. I was busier than I ever was and I had no time to study. I stopped going to class after I got so behind.

January 2010 
Signed up for a Blueprint full-length online course $1150
At this time I was interviewing for jobs since my parents were telling me that I needed to be on my own and support myself. I decided to take Blueprint's online course thinking I'd be able to do it on my own. Wrong again. I was driving back and forth between San Jose and San Diego (a long 8 hour drive) and I would spend a week at home and a week in San Diego going to job interviews. I made finding a job my mission and looking for a job was a FT job in and of itself. Needless to say, I never studied.

July 2011 
Signed up for a live Blueprint full-length course $750 (if you retake, you get 50% off)
I finally decided to take another crack at the test since I was back into a routine and comfortable at my job. My 1 year there had just passed and it was time to hit the books. I ended up going to class 3 times a week and having 14 hour days. I turned studying into a 2nd full-time job. 2 months was not long enough so I postponed the test until December, but this was the first time I studied for the test and went to every single class. So very worth it.

October 2011 
Signed up for a Blueprint full-length online course $750 (again, 50% off)
I definitely think this was worth it since it helped me stay on track and I was able to brush up on my techniques for 2 months until the test in December. It helped a lot and it was worth it.

Total: $4,495

I regret procrastinating on this for so long only because I wasted so much money (and my parents' money since they paid for the first 3 courses for me). I wish I could go back and tell myself that I should have studied, but I don't regret hanging out with my siblings and taking different classes at the gym with my mom while living at home. I don't regret figuring life out and living between 2 cities, and I don't regret finding my job and gaining real world experience before realizing I really wanted to go.

So there you have it. My LSAT history and how much money was wasted on this darn test. I thought I would never have to see it again after last December but after I got the letter from USD, I am pretty happy to hit the books again as it is so familiar to me and I want a higher score. The way I look at it is - "How hard will I work for almost $150,000?" If I can raise my score and get scholarship money next year, that would make EVERYTHING worth it.

Thanks for staying with me on this journey. I really hope all this hard work (and money spent) pays off.


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