I Don't Know How to Relax

Sooo I need some major help guys. I honestly do not know how to relax. Today's post is not financial related, but definitely life-related. I need to vent.

The stress is looming and totally real right now. October is rapidly approaching and I seem to have stuff going on each week. I have my appellate brief, moot court deadlines, and oral argument in October, following closely by my negotiation competition in November and then finals.

Right now, I don't even have time to eat lunch in between classes and activities. I've been juggling a heavy class load with running from Law & Business board meetings to planning and coordinating a mentor/mentee program, attending moot court meetings, drafting a contract for our negotiation competition, interviewing for fall (I'm crazy) and summer jobs, spending hours on flowcharting and outlining evidence, scheduling/coordinating meetings for advocacy, researching for my appellate brief, and on top of that finding the time to maintain relationships and be somewhat social, and exercise and walk my dog everyday.

This happens 7 days a week and it's funny how I am supposed to be adding more to this list: negotiation practices (sparring sessions), appellate brief writing, oral argument prep, trial observing, conference calls for moot court, and outlining for my other class.

Okay wow, I've never seen it all written out like that. The pressure is real. I'm insane. My counselor has told me to stop adding more to my plate, but it's like I'm having some weird competition with myself and trying to see how much I can really handle.

I think I just realized that I can't take on working part-time at this point. I'm in the interviewing process with a company that I really wanted to work for but I will have to tell them that I just can't handle it right now, but I'd like to see if I can work there next semester. I am so glad I decided not to write on for any journals this year (can't imagine fixing citations and writing a 25-page paper this sem).

.......is it really???? via
I am constantly using lists and updating all of my calendars, managing emails, and setting alarms. They're actually really helpful. I've been a list person but this is a whole new level of organization and planning for me. Everything is scheduled in my Outlook calendar and color-coded. So I guess I have one redeeming factor that's keeping me put together and that's my organization and time-management skills.

When I try to stop thinking and relax though, I get more stressed out not doing anything. I don't want to waste time napping but it just feels like I'm in overdrive, all the time. I don't think it's healthy to continue on this streak. Last year I was burnt out right before finals, and got incredibly sick. I would like to avoid that unfortunate luck again this year.

I try to take breaks and watch my favorite TV shows like Breaking Bad and Sons of Anarchy, but I find myself still doing work while I watch, otherwise I feel unproductive. When I run everyday it is an awesome stress reliever, but there are times during my days that I just want to pause for a few minutes and learn how to calm down. I'm naturally a high-strung person and I fear that I've become more type A. There's nothing wrong with that, but for someone who has never been extremely type A, it's a bit all shocking to me how extreme I've become.

Anyways, do you have any tips on learning how to relax? Would love to hear your suggestions.


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